08-08-04
Pain;as always
Im waiting for you my love...
As i always have been.
I can't wait to hear the beautiful sounds of your screams,
As you gaze into my eyes and are paralyzed by the pain you see in them.
You've been invading my dreams time after time...
It's not fair of you to torture me with your smiles, when we cannot be together.
Now you see my world...
Were you so blind that you couldnt see it before?It has always been there.
You will never comprehend this world thats inside of me.
If only for a moment, you could possess half the pain that i live through...
You'd lay cringing on the floor,
gasping for breath...
Or perhaps not.
Do u suppose your strong enough to take part of my pain? Do you care for me so, that you'd bestow upon me the relief of this torture?
I guess one can dream...
I've lived with this all for so long,
I've strengthened & learned to cope with it.There are only certain times...
Where my body gives in and im too weak to deal with it.
Have you never stopped for a moment in silence...to closely listen to the echos and cries in the distance? Could you not hear the consistent cries...of mine that come from the darkness within?
It's too deep to come out of,im falling once again.
It's ok love,you can look away.
I will torture you no longer with this hurtful gaze...
I understand u cannot be a part of me.
Now will come your beautiful screams...and perhaps tears.
You're free to leave..
you are no longer my prisoner.
Ill be alone once again, as always.
As it was meant to be.
Im always alone...always in pain.