03-01-04
Eternal love...Released
*....written on 2-10-04....*
All this time has passed...and my love for you still wont surrender.
You've cast an essence of horror over my life...because loving you is the nightmare i cant wake up from.
I've let you go..& no longer feel the hurt that used to stab me everytime i thought of you.
I've come to realize my love for you will never fade away...will never die.
I will love you eternally...& its just not fair.
-Nothing ever is-
My dying memories of our once true love & tragic loss..can tell a story of a 1000 tears in which i've cried.
All anyone has to do is turn the pages of my novel, simply to find yet another broken heart.....
Pages torn & incomplete.
Even though i thought i'd let you go..
I still hadn't....S0o finally now...
You've TRULY been released.
That doesnt mean i don't love you though
In me,there will always be parts of you...
you were the one who gave me life..
made me grow...
But how i once felt for you, has passed into the oblivion of lost love.
Because of that love...I've been prone to heartaches, losses..
It has kept me tied to you..As much as i tried to sever them & move on.
You wont stop me from being happy though.
I'll find someone to make me happier than you once did, maybe i already have.
Maybe i've found happiness, but dont know it yet.. or simply havent seen it...
I stopped looking a long time ago, so would i recognize it now?...
If it looked me in the eye..would i see it?..
I've come to find others who are willing to make me happy,willing to care for me..
But when will i find the one who matches me...or has my mentality?
Love for you now, feels like a poison, only wounding me.
Where is the one to heal these wounds of mine?..
Who will take my pain & fears away?..& not give me tears of weariness & sorrow....?
Keep me safe & make me smile...
__something you never fully conquered__
My love is eternal...but we are not.
So if you still love me......
.........release me.